I feel like a hit a Neo point a few years back. I was torn, you know, standing there with those pills. One will send me back to the little case and keep me plugged in going about my day and one will show me reality as it really is, pain and all. I took the red pill, and somtimes I wonder why. But I still know I'm better off.
I still believe I did the right thing. Life has not been easy since, but it would have been hard anyway. Regardlesss, now I have the strong web of reality to fall into. I don't have to pretend anymore, and I can face things with people that have a similar mindset for life. It's an interesting place to be, considering where I was a few years ago.