I really hate life sometimes, but who doesn't? Who isn't ahving financial difficulties and family issues lately? I mean, it's the way life is. The sucky thing I am realizing is, the more you think being in God's Will means you're protected from bad things happening, the more wrong you are. Bad things do happen to good people.
And next year this time, I'll barely remember getting a ticket I can't afford, and trying to pay bills I can't afford. I'll barely remember hating my situation as much as I do.
I'm sure I won't remember crying in defeat this much. Or crying for that matter. The world is an emotional place for some of us. I don't just take things in stride. I mean, I try to. But I also feel that the harder I try to be good with my finances and go to church more and pray more and all those things, the more I screw up.
I mean, what is it about me that fails? Cause I don't succeed at life nearly as much as I want to. And that's the way it has always been. I really am trying, but things just go the way they want to I guess, regardless of how much I try or want my life to be better.
I hate the things I can't control. Boo.
Monday, June 1
The African people have a desperation for God that few of us in our suburban churches could ever understand. Their hearts are open to whatever God would have for them. Unlike us, that will only do what is in our comfort zone. We should look at pictures like this and be moved toward God. Toward whatever he would have for us. Not just what we think or want, but what God himself would want us to do. Whether that's engaging a stranger in Starbucks or selling all our collectibles and using the money to hop the next plane to to Thailand to preach in the streets. Paul, Stephen, Timothy and all the other disciples of Jesus the Christ only wish they had the modern conveniences we have to use to spread the hope and love of Christ. Can you imagine what Paul could have done if he had YouTube? What a crazy world this is. I want to be more like Jesus. And this photo is a great motivator.