New revelation

Yeah, I mean, I think it is possible to totally be pure when you get married. I just most people make the choice to cave.

Life is about choices.

And I don't know what choice I will make when in that position. Sure, I hope it's the one that keeps me focused and not caught up in emotions and passion of the moment.

But that's never really been my pattern or my best attribute.

I guess for me, if I ended up doing something physically with a guy that I did before Jesus was so prevalent in my life, it would be as if he had never come in. As if he had never done anything to change me. That's where I am coming from. I have done some things in my past I am not proud of. After the past few years of seeking peace and working so hard to forgive myself for being so caught up in wanting to feel loved and letting that drive me to make bad decisions with men, I hope that now I would exude the fruit of the spirit which includes self-control.

But what I say about decisions I will make in the future is based just as much on theory as it is experience.

So, basically, I will cross that bridge when I come to it.